Peace! Solitude!

Sitting with thoughts tumbling, one after the another, through my mind, I try to sift and concentrate on only one thought, something which could be said to be akin to what is recommended by the masters of meditation.

I wait for that one thought to come forward and engulf me, but the mind is so used to multi-tasking all the times, that the mind refuses to allow only one thought to spread. My son with remote in his hand is not helping the matters at all. The TV switches swiftly between a kids show to Cricket match on a sports channel to  a popular cookery show - all of these with high TRPs, coveting for attention on the 'smart box' (has to be smart to ensure that people smarter than it, sit open-mouthed in front of it for hours on a stretch).

Changing the room doesn't help. Now I can hear the traffic from the road, hawkers selling their wares with a voice loud enough to rouse the dead from their slumber.

Moving to the last safe haven in the house, I sit down again, in complete silence.

And suddenly the ears are assaulted by the loud reverberations from the neighbor's music system, belting out the latest 'Bollywood' tunes accompanied by not so soft a voice singing along.

Shaking my head, I give up all thoughts and surrender to the amalgamated sounds arising from the surroundings, closing my mind to the ideas of segregation of thoughts, abandoning all hopes for it happening in the near future, I join my son on the couch to enjoy the brainless sitcom on 'smart' box, allowing it to lure me away from solitude and peace.

Peace! Solitude!
Another Day.. you will be mine!! 

Ebb

There comes a time in your life, when you need to sit back, reevaluate where you had started for, where you are headed for; what you had intended to do and what you are doing. Life has a way of carrying one along, on its ebb and flow, making you a more or less a spectator on the sidelines of what should have been your show.

Instead of it being your life, it has become so much more..  a complex algorithm - situations compounded and often beyond your control..... you are part of so many lives, touched by so many others, who participate in the 'give & take', which is often more of take and less of give.

Your life suddenly is not just yours, it has become a chore, with getting up at the buzz of the alarm by the bedside to the mundane occurrences throughout the day to the wrapping up of the day.In the daily grind you did not realise as to when did you allow yourself to become a mere puppet of the daily grind.


The time to reevaluate gives you the leisure to see what went wrong where and how, it is an opportunity which is given rarely and should be exploited to the max. Use it wisely to sieve the husk from the wheat, bad from the good, merited from unmerited burdens; sit and cry for what you have lost - what could have been yours, but never will be, cry you heart out and then get up - dust yourself and move on.

Don't let the time be the one ruling your life, take control of your desires, aspirations. These are what define who you are and what you will be. Often in our lives we let the circumstances decide and define us.

Every day when you get up make it worth your while, do something at least once in a day which makes sense only to you, which is something you cherish, something which brings a smile to your face.