Emotions

I feel so alive and zingy all the time,
When I think of where I was and where I'm,
And when I see you, my heart fills with glee.
I cherish the awareness of this new found me...

Life's so gorgeous! This love is unending!
I can't resist a smile, it's true!
The eyes and brains fade into shadows...
Whole....  I'll never be blue!

The soul is encompassing; the heart glorious,
And my heart is truly awake.
I could sleep and dream 'til life was done,
But now there is a locus to my plans.

Brain Hyperdrive

I cannot sleep. Every night when it's time to sleep, even when all are asleep, I cannot sleep. I toss and I turn. I change positions to get more comfortable. I lie on my back, still no sleep. I turn and lie on my right side, nope, no sleep.

I try my left side, still no sleep. It's frustrating, listening to the fan whirring away, ruining any chance of my sleeping. Blocking out the sound of the fan, no help. The Air Con comes alive to cool the temperature, adding to the already noisy environment. I just cannot sleep.

It doesn't help when thoughts are racing through my mind, one after the other. Catching one thought and burying it deep in my conscious, doesn't help as another comes flying. A memory I had not thought about in ages, flies out and catches me. Another one runs as a sub-current, waiting to arise. A still another thought is not so patient and comes tangentially, attacking me.

My mind is abuzz. The thoughts start to tumble over one another. It's like I am on some drug, which keeps me up, making me feel alive. The energy in my brain, makes me sensitive to the sound of the dog packs barking at an innocent prey, to the sound of the car carrying its passengers encossed inside in the false sense of safety.

I move out the room. Maybe all I need is a change of the room, a room with less sound. I don't switch on the fan, don't want it whirring and trying to talk to me. The new room comes with its challenges. It has the light coming from the neighbors home, which is adding to the white noise. A pillow on the eyes helps a little, but now I can hear the sounds from two other rooms, with the Air Con switching on and going into a gung-ho mode and the fan trying to outdo with the shir shir of its own. The cacophony is too much for me.

I return to the room.

I toss and I turn.

I cannot sleep.

India burning- Why?!?

Just a thought or two on the current scenario in India

First: We all saw the video clip wherein students of JNU chanted Pakistan and Afzal Guru supporting slogans. Then we all also saw the doctored video clip accusing a few more student leaders.

Few questions I have from all the opposition leaders who are going hoarse shouting their support for the students.
1) Was Afzal Guru hanged by Modi personally?
If my memory serves me, it was the previous government, who is now going out and supporting the ones opposing Afzal Guru's sentencing.

2) Was due law process followed? Did he get a chance to appeal?
Yes, a due process was followed. He was tried in Court of Law according to our country laws. Was provided with chances to appeal, which looking at his activities was denied.

3) What did he exactly do?
He tried to instigate anti-India and terrorist activities while living in our Nation. He was found guilty of the said activities.

4) Do people of India have a right to voice their differences?
Yes, absolutely! But does that give them the right to say that 'Har ghar se Afzal aayega'.. No!

5) Did Umar have a right to air his views?
Yes!

6) Did he have a right to say what he did against India?
No.

7) Does it seem legit or is the current time correct to be blaming the current Government or is it even legit to support the students who are sloganeering against India?
It doesn't make any sense to blame BJP Government, for a decision which was taken a) under the Congress Government rule, b) by the Court of laws of our Nation.
As for Congress supporting, it is like the pot calling the kettle black. Go figure!

8) As the head of ruling party, does it become Sh. Narendar Modi's personal responsibility to ensure how people are eating in their homes?
NO! So, why should he become answerable for everything going wrong anywhere in the Nation. Even if it is me catching a cold!

9) When the undoctored videos showing Umar were sufficient, why would a ruling party bring out doctored video clips???

If anyone can please explain this??

10) Is RSS such a big organisation that it is responsible for sudden increase in rioting?
If it had been that effective and strong an organisation, India would have seen BJP coming to power way earlier.

One request to all the people... think.. please think.. before jumping on to the latest bandwagon of bashing Govt. of India!!

Untitled

We stumble, We fall
but what is a little obstacle,
which comes but for a while,...

Above or about, how time moves on.
Marvelously, flawlessly, lazily, seductively
but rarely ever benignly.

Night time light breezes fanning the insomnia.
The malevolent thoughts ride on the breeze.
Overwhelming, engulfing is the fragrance
the sweet smelling wisteria and tuberose

About or before, how cold breathes.
Sometimes veiled and always ephemeral
engulfed in shroud, floating silhouettes

 

Smile

Why does the heart not live?
Only the sadness covers.
Where was the friend I needed then?
Emptiness embraces needlessly as a painful lover.
As the smiles are gently stolen
Eyes glow and in them a need endures!
As the hearts are, the smiles play softly.
Ever to hear a sigh, it fought the earth and sky.

Random thoughts

How does the breeze not breathe?
What is life after all...
We die, but only for a while,
Before or above, how death endures on.
Where is the gentle breeze, the empty fear now?
Count the kisses, feel the fear.
Ever to seek a lock, it drove a eye.
Only the moon stumbles as a giddy gesture.
How does the skin not endure?

We live, but only for a while,
How does the embrace not glow?
Sometimes pleasant and always vigorous.
Yet there's hate upon the faiths and the locks.
Though it's now more blue and less nurturing.
Needlessly, silently, cravenly.
To feel, we fought. To give, we heard.
We triumph, but only for a while,

Farewell

Never did I think we would part
but like all things else
we too had a falling out

Cross road on the path we walked
you bade a goodbye
never did you look back

stood watching you
watching you quit
quit on an 'us' which never did exist

an 'us' of my mind
a mind at loss
loss that numbs
comatose which lulls

words fail me
all fails me
broken is how I feel

soul shredded to essence
grieving
grieving for sublime

lament the loss no more
you were the wings beneath my wings
the smile on my lips

it'll take me time
time to sew the rips
to smile again
smile that will not remind
remind me of you

But that would be my struggle
a struggle I will walk on alone
I will come out
come out or cease